A good painter

maybe, maybe not but good artist why not

I was never a good painter because I didn't really want to paint what  a r t s k o o l  told you to paint

or was I even a painter?

an education is sometimes rightfully about what not to follow

but not really how to not follow...

if you know what i mean

particularly in the arts

I only really started to want to paint things in a serious sense much later on, once I learned what not to paint, and why

(still uncertain)

BUT!

the magic is in motivation - don't lose it!

or at least don't worry, it comes back to you but you gotta catch it quick sometimes

and have the means to do so, which isn't always easy.